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well well well my michelle
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| they never got us anywhere |
[[Aug 26 2010 // 1:37]] |
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yup. friends only! from now on. for at least a while.
i may go public again but we'll see.
i decided i don't want random people reading anymore.
if you're an lj-less friend get an account!
then tell me and i'll add you :)
so if you have a minute why don't we go
talk about it somewhere only we know
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| big girls don't cry |
[[Aug 25 2007 // 0:07]] |
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jiawei i will always remember today
sitting in the inner plaza
side by side, quietly
moods matching the sky
but it's not like the silence was silent?
i think the feeling of bondedness was more than i could ask for
i'm really glad you were there
fergie says
love you long time
and so do iiii :)
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| or was it that you lied |
[[Aug 22 2007 // 21:54]] |
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monday was a mcday! we started the whole mc thing in the morning and then decided to go to mcdonalds and then moped about our mclives. but like, what's new
anyway today was a pleasing day even if i DID sit in the inner plaza from 1 - 7 staring at my asean notes and getting frequently distracted. and even if i DID feel like having a nervous breakdown sometime before history. because i got free things! mentos from fish, milo from shaun, eclair from kuangli and tea from joy. hahaha <3 also i think i have stopped pmsing but that means my period is going to come
anyway there is GREY'S ANATOMY to watch later which makes me very mchappy :D (dirty mistress! pregnant whore! hahah denise)
okay before i go off to scan through asean one more time
( probably the last photos you will see in a long time )
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| these roads go on forever |
[[Aug 19 2007 // 21:45]] |
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tagged by helen! i didn't do it the last time i was tagged but she told me on msn to do it so ok i'll do it
instructions:
the tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. specify the gender of the target. tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. if tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.
male.
1. take me on long drives for icecream by seasides
2. and give me your coat when i'm cold
3. tell me you miss me when you're close enough to kiss me
4. and that you'd walk a thousand miles to tell me so
5. take photographs on me on brooklyn street in october
6. when my nervous smile is slightly curved
7. some days when i'm down tell me it's okay to frown
8. remind me of all that i'm worth
HAHA ok so i cheated
modified lyrics from "october" by rosie thomas
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| it's not romantic here in blue |
[[Aug 17 2007 // 20:51]] |
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i'm SO TIRED. it's so irrational i have no idea why i feel perpetually exhausted it's not even funny.
mr burge has the most brilliantly blue eyes!
denise and i organized the humans staffroom table today! haha the one with all the magazines and brochures and books. cos it was so messy. so now they're in piles of "UK UNIVERSITIES" "US UNIVERSITIES" "THE ECONOMIST" and so on. DON'T YOU DARE mess them up! mr miles said we're domesticated and then was so inspired he decided to make coffee except the coffeepot was so gross omg. they should invest in detergent and a sponge.
and then we lagged so long talking to the tutors/each other/doing nothing they were out of hotcakes by the time we got to macs! BUMMER. i was so in the mood for something sweet and fat and buttery. (STOP EATING)
dear life,
i am mellow like an old nationalist (this is my favourite analogy) SERIOUSLY. i am not hardlined or extremist. i am moderate and conciliatory. i am perfectly willing to compromise and make negotiations and settle for less (but not too little please) and trust in your bizarre ways. please don't hurt me. please continue to pick up and i'm sure we will enjoy very .. improved bilateral relations.
yours very obligingly,
michelle!
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| especially today |
[[Aug 11 2007 // 13:20]] |
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i like headless photos
for heads and shoulders knees and toes ( click here! )
well well it's back to work now
life sucks
yesterday's simpsons with denise and joy will probably be my last movie in a loooong time
unless anyone wants to help me write my mega history essay (which i can't find material for!)
and mug for my prelims
i was looking through denise's note to me on our last night in palawan cos my mom made me clear out my cupboards (at 8 in the morning)
"it's the last morning you'll wake up seeing me next to you"
i want my tiny boats mountain air crazy bus rides emo elmo beaches back :(
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| twists and turns |
[[Aug 04 2007 // 13:59]] |
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"it's not the best of both worlds if you're lying to yourself, you know"
no i guess it isn't
times like these i just feel so constipated and in past times i would mope around and brood but this is now and so i'll just stop lying and push away the funny weighty feeling and. ohwell. rewrite my KI IS and finish my lit h3 and miles's mega essay AHH i haven't even started mugging proper i am so screwed.
but even so, i refuse to give up times like eating la mian (amanda ellen rach sooneh!) or laughing like maniacs along dark roads (jiayi sien) and i reeeally need to shop cos i have, like, no clothes
photos another day! i will be productive today i will i will. (yes evidently i have done nothing so far. partly cos i woke up at 12. i'm a pig!)
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| august, i'm on your side |
[[Jul 31 2007 // 21:18]] |
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damn it my history notes/extracts are quite literally a PILE OF PAPER. not even actually a single pile of paper, more like PILES of paper stashed away in various parts of my room. so i haveta FIND them, ORGANIZE them, MUG them. i don't wanna start :( then there is all the other work! and econs, eternal bane of my existence. how i am going to find the motivation and stamina i do not know.
school has been something of a drag, i always feel like skipping lessons, it's like some limbo state it feels like school has ended, in a way. HOW DEPRESSING i don't wanna be a j2! also i've been perpetually tired, apparently from low blood pressure/iron/whatever, and i'm SERIOUSLY relying on caffeine to keep me up. like, all the time.
AND, i record my life using the little events that pop up every now and then, a dinner here, a celebration there, etc. i mean school is fun in the sense that i've got my friends and stupid things happen everyday (and joy is a CLOWN hahaha) but it's just not.. YOU KNOW. ok nevermind i give up trying to be coherent
( photos HERE )
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| feelings from a vending machine |
[[Jul 24 2007 // 23:08]] |
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sit on a train
reading a book
same damn planet everytime i look
finished my KI! !!!! for now, anyway.
am addicteeddd to 9 crimes by damien rice thanks marcus! it's sooo emo but :D i've been singing it EVERYWHERE. i've been loving the weather the past few days. we need more days like those!
thanks for saying that.
when i'm in a thoughtful mood i like to wear heels.
sien says she's "not skinny enough to wear flats"
someone go stone her please
hahaha
but i pointed out that if youre unskinny enough for your feet to be bulging out of your shoes, you probably won't look good in any sorta footwear anyway
right right?
went to giraffe with sien my old friend who indulged me in nighttime dessert and who.. asks important questions. haha. thanks dear<3
( if you're going downtown i might as well be on your way )
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| by the way i tried to say |
[[Jul 13 2007 // 21:59]] |
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left school today after econs for breakfast at al-azhar with helen and vanessa. BEST MOVE EVER we had tons of fun talking and many laughs. wouldn't you like to know what we were talking about hahaha. it made my week! not that i was feeling particularly gross before that but.. it made my week, anyway.
what to say these days? i have nothing to say. maybe that is a good thing haha. it is certainly not a bad thing. or well no i never have nothing to say but they are more half-formed thoughts floating around like driftwood than any concrete words. haha concrete words what an oxymoron. in any case it's not important it suits me just fine! ohwell i just wanted to record this friday the thirteenth that wasn't so cursed after all :D
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[[Jul 10 2007 // 22:41]] |
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i swear, i really need to get started on things i have neglected far too long, like my ki IS, which remains resolutely UNDONE even though i willed it very hopefully to write itself. ohwellzzz. i'm a busy busy bee!
anyway i have been taking many walks! + revelling in the rare good weather, watching live earth, eating dinners, ETC. i got quite hyper after listening to bonjovi play in NJ the energy was damn good i am quite quite convinced they'll be one of the best live acts to watch :D
friday night, saturday night:
( capturing moods )
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| if it suits you just the same |
[[Jul 03 2007 // 22:11]] |
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i can't wait for christmas. some things you can only say at christmas. at christmas, i'll write seal and send stacks of cards once again, full of good wishes and holiday cheer. and then i'll take the paper bags i squashed at the back of my cupboard and throw them out. and the boxes under my desk. memories that are now meaningless, not sad, or wistful, or bitter, just meaningless .:. not worth keeping. somehow, i suspect it will be easier said than done. not anything, though, that i can't handle.
this christmas, i wonder what i'll write, and if i'll remember. last christmas, was pretty damn good. next christmas, i hope i will still have stacks of christmas cards to write (and receive!)
(i cannot be your part time friend so please don't expect me to still be around when you get back)
(but i told you this would happen. and now it's no longer a thing we have to fight but a choice. to let it happen. maybe it is the expectations theory come to invade my daytoday life, you know, self-fulfilling prophecy, but i find, it doesn't really matter anymore, such strenuous distinctions)
ohh, but i've come a long way.
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in other news, blocks are officially over! amanda and i hit sentosa+vivocity again, like we did last blocks. crazy speedshopped AGAIN, spent unintended money AGAIN, we are hopeless gits, and the sun hates us so our efforts at tanning were entirely in vain. again. still it was a good time! .:. SUCCESS
for the next week or so..i have things to do, dinners to eat, people to meet, and then we'll see about that othello essay. and etc. i am meeting emm tomorrow! CAN'T WAIT<3 but for now im just really really sleepy and slumped in my chair with my feet on the table but i can't resist talking to people so i shan't go to sleep!
p/s i officially have no moneyz! or well i will soon suffer from negative allowance again, anyway. PARTYPOOPER
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| sunshine, we all see the same sky |
[[Jun 28 2007 // 18:02]] |
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things that made me happy today:
1) the person who returned jiawei's bottle to me, whoever you are! cos i was looking for it in vain and Mystery Person must've seen me and then when i got back from lunch it was sitting on the table with a note saying "guess you were looking for this :)" OMG. DON'T YOU JUST LOVE NICE PEOPLE??? it made me so happy thank you i have faith in the human race again hahaha!
plus, the note was written on tissue paper, which made me smile cos i write things on tissue paper alllll the time and everyone thinks i'm really weird
2) the cleaner who said she couldn't believe how i sat there from 8 in the morning mugging (i also can't believe -_-) so i told her about my naps and she showed me her handphone msg haha
3) peeeoplleeee
4) finding my black comb!
have been in a positively cheery mood - even through the NIGHTMARE that was my econs blocks, which was spectacularly disastrous i mean i am not even exaggerating (confirm U), through the 13hour cramps the day before while mugging for it, through the cramps DURING the test. through the BEASTLY weather. through the locked classrooms situation.
(okay fine, maybe not during the econs test. but no one is allowed to be cheery during an econs test, man. that's just sick)
mugging doesn't even bring me down because it isn't even painful! and even though i royally bombed econs i don't feel lousy about it cos i didn't mug - cos i did, actually, and it's not like more mugging would've helped my very disastrous situation anyway - and exams are nearly over! and even though i have lots of things awaiting my attention after blocks (like lit h3, as mr perry so kindly reminded us) i suppose it doesn't matter, right now i am feeling really positive about everything, AND PRODUCTIVE. i am even going to do my othello essay.
so this entry is just to say, i am in a generally BRILLIANT MOOD and have been in one for about a month. which is totally bizarre. THIS IS A NEW WORLD ORDER. plus i have fixed my hair! to a reasonable extent. and i had an epiphany regarding the Expectations Theory teehee. so feel free to take advantage of my good mood (while it lasts)! talk to me! get me to do stupid things! ask me out! ask me for favours! cos chances are, i will probably oblige! so! many! exclamation! marks!
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[[Jun 24 2007 // 11:35]] |
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you know, the thing about econs and me is that i actually understand it. if i read sloman really closely, or whatever. like, i actually GET IT. i just cannot APPLY IT to save my life. and believe me, my life needs saving. i can't do anything except UNDERSTAND IT. is that sad or what! right now my favourite thing to say is HYSTERESIS it's such an apt little word.
school + blocks tomorrow and it all seems so NORMAL again like the hols didn't happen. i don't like the way time plays tricks with my mind
(carol ann duffy "a dreaming week")
Not tonight, I’m dreaming
in the heart of the honeyed dark
in a boat of a bed in the attic room
in a house on the edge of the park
where the wind in the big old trees
creaks like an arc.
Not tomorrow, I’m dreaming
till dusk turns into dawn – dust, must,
most, moot, moon, mown, down –
with my hand on an open unread book
a bird that’s never flown… distantly
the birdsong of the telephone.
Not the following evening, I’m dreaming
in the monocle of the moon,
a sleeping S on the page of a bed
in the tome of a dim room, the rain
on the roof, rhyming there,
liked the typed words of a poem.
Not the night after that, I’m dreaming
till the stars are blue in the face
printing the news of their old light
with the ink of space,
yards and yards of black silk night
to cover my sleeping face.
Not the next evening, I’m dreaming
in the crook of midnight’s arm
like a lover held by another
safe from harm, like a child
stilled by a mother, safe and warm
twelve golden faraway bells for a charm.
Not that night either, I’m dreaming
till the tides have come and gone
sighing over the frowning sand,
the whale’s lovely song
scored on wave after wave of water
all the wet night long.
Not the last night, I’m dreaming
under the stuttering clock,
under the covers, under closed eyes,
all colours fading to black,
the last of daylight hurrying
for a date with the glamourous dark.
( there now steady love, so few come and don't go )
( will you won't you, be the one i'll always know? )
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